Thoughts to Paper

(Source: lesb1an)

Tonight is Kelsey’s prom. I was so excited, but now she is bringing me down. She is crying and wont tell me why, and then she got her period. She is pretty much saying shit to kill my night so I cant have any fun. Just because she is upset about her period she is going to kill my night. I’m sorry I cant fuck you tonight! Like really? Thats what you were really looking forward to? Thanks…

I love you so very much,
Even thou at times I do things that hurt,
I try so hard to hope that you always see,
How much you being in my life means to me,
I am sorry yet again for causing you pain, 
that is the last thing I ever wanted to do,
Even when I am trying to look out for you and do the right thing 
I mess up, I am sorry for that too.
I hope that you still know how much I love and cherish you,
Like nothing else in my life gives me the trill of being loved by you.
So I hope that you listen and see it in my eyes, 
this sincere apology that comes with tears from deep inside.

Kelsey’s mom is not with her boyfriend = I cant see Kelsey.

She says we spend to much time together. She is with her boyfriend more then I am with Kelsey. She lives with him, I don’t live with Kelsey. She does this every time she is not at his house. When she is at her mom’s she makes Kelsey come home.

And a course Kelsey wins again! UGH SHE GETS ME SO MAD ABOUT THIS BULLSHIT! I can never do what I want to do because she makes me feel so fucking guilty for trying to see my best friend. “/

I wake up early to stay with Kelsey as she sits in the Emergency Room. Well, I have been awake for about 2 hours now, and we have yet to go. I’m not allowed in her house because her grandmother is embarrassed about the mess, so I’m waiting at my house. I’m getting pissed. I didn’t sleep much last night, and would love to keep sleeping. Kelsey fell back asleep, well I think, she hasn’t answered her phone all morning since she called me…. I’m getting mad.